…you seem to be really busy because I, once again, should apologize for not taking care of my blog lately. Sorry for that. But now: as I turned 20 recently, I was thinking about writing a post and this is why I tried to figure out what turning 20 is all about. I came to the conclusion that, at a first glance, it isn’t really that big of a deal. Two numbers changed, the “one” is gone and it’s staying away from the pole position for the next 80 years. (If I manage to survive until then which is, considering my clumsiness, really unlikely.) So there we are, still young, still making mistakes, still vulnerable and still regretting things we shouldn’t. But with 20 one quite important thing has changed: I am one step closer to adulthood.
I don’t know if I’m ever going to have this feeling of being a completely mature adult. I assume so; at least that’s what people expect me to be one day. But then I think of all the responsibilities that go along with adulthood. Taxes, insurances and other complicated state-related stuff that I’ve successfully avoided during the last 20 years. I am definitely not ready for this. Last week I proudly managed to fix the vacuum cleaner without any help and that felt good. After that, I strutted dramatically across our hallway like cleaning was one of the most graceful things one can do. But as a real mature adult that’s one of a really long list of things that you just casually do. Technically, in an international context, I am still one year away from being a complete adult and that’s really good news. Bad news is that one year won’t be enough. So if there was any book named “From fixing your vacuum cleaner to fixing your life in less than 1 year” I would definitely consider buying it.
Problem is, that there’ll never be enough time to prepare for being an adult. There are lots of points in your life where you just have to take on responsibility, to make decisions, even if you’re not willing to. (And yes, deciding about what to eat for dinner is just as important as other decisions; so let’s count that as a point for our victory list). It just happens and little by little you’ll feel more secure, especially about yourself. And there’ll be moments where you just want to turn back time, to curl up under a blanket, to play with your Polly Pocket dolls or Power Ranger figures or something that reminds you of your innocent time as a fully acknowledged child. And suddenly you’ll find yourself in a cinema watching Finding Dory and crying. But in your twenties you can actually do that kind of things. Nobody expects you to work, you’ll still allowed to make mistakes, to take a break and to ask your parents for advice. The best thing about being in your twenties is that you’re neither a complete adult nor a child. You can actually be everything you want to be and you should appreciate this state of freedom. You want to assume responsibility at your student organization but at the same time you just want to gamble Super Mario on your old Nintendo? That’s ok. Go for it.
As I already said, you could be anything, you’ve still enough energy and time to literally take over the world if you wanted to. In our twenties we should be aware and appreciate that we still have the most precious privileges on earth: energy and time to do whatever we want to do. Let’s go find ourselves, explore the world and try out new things even if they sound crazy as hell. And don’t worry all the time; that period is certain to come sooner than you might expect. There are still a lot of mistakes to make but you shouldn’t be afraid of that. There is only one thing you can do in your twenties that you’re going to regret for the rest of your life: to waste this special gift of energy and time. You should definitely enjoy the very peak of your youth. No matter what you study, no matter what you’re working on, there is no difficulty you can’t overcome. Your twenties are your better years. Be selfish with your time, travel, explore, and love a lot. You can be a rebel, a loner, a fighter, vulnerable and at the same time invincible. We are too young to be this sad. And as Barney Stinson would say: stop being sad and be awesome instead, because the Golden Twenties don’t just describe a period of history but also some very important years of our lives.